Cathy T Burns

Counselor, Teacher, Writer, Spiritual Director

Counselor, Teacher, Writer, Spiritual Director

Focused on Faith and Healing of Heart, Soul, Mind, and Body

My passion is helping people seeking emotional, physical and spiritual wellness.

My counseling specialties include chronic illness, individual counseling, grief counseling, mood regulation, couples counseling, marital intensives, trauma and EMDR.

My practice and workshops utilize a combination of brain physiology, psychology, and spiritual formation through the application of restoration therapy.

Does God Hide?

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My response is to get down on my knees before the Father, this magnificent Father who parcels out all heaven and earth. I ask him to strengthen you by his Spirit—not a brute strength but a glorious inner strength—that Christ will live in you as you open the door and invite him in. And I ask him that with both feet planted firmly on love, you’ll be able to take in with all followers of Jesus the extravagant dimensions of Christ’s love. Reach out and experience the breadth! Test its length! Plumb the depths! Rise to the heights! Live full lives, full in the fullness of God.
Ephesians 3:16-19 MSG

Alone

The house, devoid of the 42 years of accumulated possessions, relinquished it’s treasures to a vast truck that was pulling away. Alone, inside the house, I was stuffing heavy emotions as I watched my possessions depart.

Dropping my gaze I focused on an isolated sheet of paper in the middle of the study floor. Stooping to throw it away I had a strong urge to examine the paper.

Opening the page I discovered lyrics that proclaimed hope and trust that God was near. The words stirred my sense of lostness mingled with a desire to have hope.

Clinging to these words I knew that they needed to be highlighted in my life at the moment. I stuffed the paper in my back-pack and shifted into auto mode as I locked up the house. I was good at not self-reflecting when stressed, I doggedly focused on the next task.

The next morning, with boxes and my precious dogs, I headed east on I40. Just as I took the fork in the road, marking the point of no return, I heard a surprising yet familiar lyrics from the radio (I rarely listen to the radio vs my own playlist!). It was the same song recovered from the study floor! “You (God) are with me and You won’t let go…” by Tenth Ave North.

Perfect in the timing, perfect in touching my heart as only God could. Unbelievable! With tears flowing, my heart was captivated by His love. I felt strengthened to be fearless and free as I started my new journey.

I had been packing the house, closing a counseling practice, saying goodbye to friends and preparing for the move to another state. All without the presence of my husband, who was already working his new job, highlighted the reality of my aloneness, binding my heart and soul, blinding me to my God who stayed. The burden of handling loose ends alone created a negatively biased anxious heart reacting with an unrelenting push of independence.

Awakening

The song awoke my awareness giving me a corrected vision of His presence throughout my ordeal. I had never been alone, God was not hiding, perhaps I had not been fully looking.

I was not fully looking because the love of our Divine Creator is so hard to believe! A love that is with us always in spite of our betrayals of puny faith. As C. S. Lewis beautifully articulates in his book The Problem with Pain:

“…it passes reason to explain why any creatures, not to say creatures such as we, should have a value so prodigious in their Creator’s eyes.”

Birth to the grave, humans need connection. We are hardwired to flourish emotionally and physically through healthy relationships. Creating us for relationships, our Creator will never hide from our essential sustenance for true life. Relationship with our God, the essence of unbelievable unconditional love, is always available.

“The love of God– the love of Christ — for you is so spectacular that you cannot grasp it.” source John Piper from Consider Your Calling

Hiding in Fear

Grasping the vastness of God’s loyal love is plagued with obstacles. The strongest obstacles are our own choices. The habitual coping reactions of shame, anxiety, pride, resentment, and anger, can be chosen providing short term protection for our hearts. Long term, these reactions will only protract the pain in our hearts. A pain that feeds our fears that God has left us helpless, worthless and unlovable. These are lies blinding us of the reality of the lifeline of holy connection to our Father who created us.

Seeking in Faith

The truth is, God has done all the work giving us the opportunity to have a relationship with Him. Through His love, we have access to His presence through the sacrifice of His son crucified. We can choose to be His, to be loved, made worthy and empowered by His Spirit. We must believe it.

What then shall we say to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us? He who did not spare his own Son but gave him up for us all, how will he not also with him graciously give us all things? Romans 8:31-32

Why would God do this for us? We were born as we were created by love to be loved, we are made worthy through His love. Worthy to become the containers of God’s light and power (2 Corinthians 4:7). We can remain hidden or choose to open our hearts to be filled with the power of God’s love.

Believing Truth

My response is to get down on my knees before the Father, this magnificent Father who parcels out all heaven and earth. I ask him to strengthen you by his Spirit—not a brute strength but a glorious inner strength—that Christ will live in you as you open the door and invite him in. And I ask him that with both feet planted firmly on love, you’ll be able to take in with all followers of Jesus the extravagant dimensions of Christ’s love. Reach out and experience the breadth! Test its length! Plumb the depths! Rise to the heights! Live full lives, full in the fullness of God. Ephesians 3:16-19 MSG

As scripture proclaims, our human brains struggle to conceive the extravagant dimensions of this divine love. Letting that truth penetrate, will open our eyes to His continuous presence in our lives, no matter what.

Henri Nouwen wrote in his book You Are the Beloved: I am beginning to now see how radically the character of my spiritual journey will change when I no longer think of God as hiding out and making it as difficult as possible for me to find him, but, instead, as the One who is looking for me while I am doing the hiding.

Knowing the assurance that we have a God who stays, and the awareness of our fears that may be causing us to hide will heighten our spiritual journey with God giving us the clarity that will put us on a path to inner peace and profound joy.

Listen to Matthew West’s song The God Who Stays and be confident we have God’s love always.

Gratitude Redeems Life’s Struggles

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1 Give thanks to the Lord, for he is good;
his faithful love endures forever.

22 Let them offer sacrifices of thanksgiving
and announce his works with shouts of joy.

43 Let whoever is wise pay attention to these things
and consider the Lord’s acts of faithful love.   Psalm 107: 1,22,43 CSV

23 The sacrifice that honors me
    is a thankful heart.
Obey me,
    and I, your God,
    will show my power to save.  Psalms 50:23 CEV

 

I often hear about and experience struggle all around me.

A young wife and mother with a husband battling leukemia.

A mother to be. experiencing a stillbirth of her loved child.

The only adult child, losing both aging parents within weeks of each other.

A floundering marriage of two wounded hearts battling to be loved.

A young adult beginning her life haunted by memories of abuse.

These are just some of the struggles I came in contact with yesterday.

With Thanksgiving is next week, how can these experiences co/exist with gratitude?

What is Gratitude?

Research would reveal many definitions from a scientific point of view and a spiritual reality.

Gratitude has a twofold emphasis, an appreciation for the goodness of life and the connection with something larger than themselves. I.E. to thankfully receive kindness from other people in the community as well as a connection (for believers in Christ) to the divine creator of the universe, Jehovah God.

Is Gratitude Possible through the Struggles of Life?

When a life has been steeped in suffering, disappointments, losses, illness or injustice, how can or why should we choose to live with the mindset of gratitude?

Gratitude is not only possible during a life struggle but it is highly probable. Gratitude is often strongest during or after a crisis.

The first Thanksgiving was initiated by the pilgrims as a redemptive response to the tremendous number of deaths after the first year of landing in a foreign world. It became a national holiday in the middle of the civil war and was officially designated to the last Thursday in November following the Great Depression.

In good times we become complacent and are less likely to treasure the gifts of comfort and security to which we have become accustomed.

In a crisis, we become acutely aware of our vulnerabilities, searching for strength and security through actions and connections of others. We also have a greater sensitivity and clarity regarding the goodness that is present in our world. This goodness is a light to a heart that is floundering in the darkness of a chaotic world.

The recent victims of the hurricane in Houston demonstrated profound gratitude for their rescuers and the security of the lives of family members. The gratitude was a grounding force that helped the victims press forward into recovery efforts restoring their homes.

 

How is Gratitude a Gift?

The benefits of gratitude have been affirmed in books of psychology and proclaimed in spiritual writings including the Bible.

Physically, the practice of gratitude can relieve stress, improve sleep, and decrease pain, improving the immune system and even rewiring the brain. Gratitude changes the perspective of any bad situation heightening the focus on the goodness that gives security and connection.

The biggest hindrance to having gratitude is an attitude of entitlement and self-absorption. This perspective is blind to the graciousness of others. In contrast, humility heightens the awareness the redemptive presences of blessings bring in the turmoil of life.

In Psalm 107 David writes about many experiences of crisis punctuated with the reality of God’s covering in that moment. The first verse, the middle verse and the last verse are some of the verses in that chapter proclaiming gratitude for the secure goodness of God’s love. These verses indicate the benefit of joy and wisdom in the practice of gratitude.

The sacrifice of a thankful heart in Psalms 50 is a soft heart, humbly honoring God, open to His leading. I get a mental picture of a childlike person captivated by the love of His Father, resting in His presences, confident in His power to save.

3 Spiritual Benefits of Gratitude

These passages outline the spiritual benefits of gratitude for the love of our Father. The gratitude of a humble heart:

  1. Instills Power – confidently receiving His power, creating resilience
  2. Inspires Purpose – lives life joyously and wisely, realizing redemption
  3. Initiates Peace – knows the presence of God is real, releasing anxiety

Gratitude Gives Clarity to the Reality of God’s Presence

The grateful heart is hope(full) hearted, leaning on the power, purpose, and peace of God in every situation of life. The promises of God never waver, His presence proclaims His promises. The practice of gratitude conditions our hearts to seek and sense, with clarity, the presence of God.

The lyrics of this song, The Presence of God, is an offer of thanksgiving for God’s persistent loving presence giving us hope, healing, restoration, and power, guiding to the end.

Father, release the hopelessness from my heart, filling me with your Spirit. I humbly submit to Your guidance and request that you open the eyes of my heart to receive the freedom of gratitude to perceive the reality your presence. Thank you for your everlasting loving kindness that is my anchor in this chaotic world and my light to a path of peace; THROUGH JESUS CHRIST MY LORD.  AMEN

 

To Taste God’s Goodness We Must First Have a Taste for God Part 3

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Let us all come forward and draw near with true (honest and sincere) hearts in unqualified assurance and absolute conviction engendered by faith (by that leaning of the entire human personality on God in absolute trust and confidence in His power, wisdom, and goodness), having our hearts sprinkled and purified from a guilty (evil) conscience and our bodies cleansed with pure water. Hebrews 10:22 AMPC

Driving alone with my two canine companions for eleven hours, could not have been better. The dogs were chilled, taking an amazing nap in the back of the car. I stayed alert and the car did not falter.

As a side note, the week I arrived, all four of my brakes had to be replaced. They suddenly began to make an alarming grinding noise. I knew the timing was God’s protection! After two months of intensely trusting Him as a companion in this moving process, my awareness of His protection and provision was highlighting God’s goodness

The awareness of His goodness freed my fears and fed my faith.

The Heart, Mind, and Soul Work Together to Taste the Goodness of God

Taste and see that the Lord is good!
How blessed is the one who takes shelter in him! Psalms 34:8 NET

Written together, the words “taste” and “see”, in the original Hebrew language mean; to perceive, experience, behold, see intellectually, live to see, to be fully aware.

As we trust we must also be intentional about developing our soul awareness of God’s goodness. We must be devoted to staying engaged in the process of softening our wounded hearts and opening our minds.

The 3 Actions that Lead to the Tasting of God’s Goodness

SEEK– To make a delicious dish, research is done first, seeking more information about the combination of spices and cooking temperatures. To seek, to “see intellectually”, to know what is the goodness of God and to understand what His promises are, is the first step toward developing the taste for God’s goodness.

Praying for wisdom and discernment, followed by the study of scripture, will reveal God truths that will heighten trust leaving us with a desire for more divine connection.

ENGAGE– To be intentionally aware of the presence of God. To be mindful of people, protection, and provision that God is placing in your life. To be still, to open your awareness to the presence of God in your mind and heart.

A simple prayer from the psalms or a breathe prayer can slow down the chaos of thoughts and allow you to be more spiritually connected with your Father.

ENJOY – The moment your taste is stimulated, relish in the savory taste of His love. Take note, take a picture, pause, imbibe in the moment. There is no joy like the realization that God cares, He is there, He sees, He loves unconditionally…We are free from the confines of our fears.

Live Hope(full) Hearted

Tasting God’s goodness grows a life that is hope(full).

We become hope(full) hearted living as someone that can say “I have this hope In the depth of my soul”. Your heart is the essence of who you are, your identity, it determines your perspective of life.

A heart full of hope, a confident trust, in God’s goodness will have an awareness of His presence. An awareness that will change your perspective allowing you to see yourself and others with eyes love and compassion.

I am going forward in this new place, two states away, hope(full) hearted. God has become my place of peace and source of joy. Prayers have been answered guiding our church planting team in God’s direction. Some days I do focus on the hurt(full) moments of loss and lose my footing a bit. My good God is patient and forgiving as I take one day at a time.

I pray that God, the source of hope, will fill you completely with joy and peace because you trust in Him. Please listen to the song I Have this Hope and live in the joy of His goodness.

To Taste God’s Goodness We Must First Have a Taste for God Part 2

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Taste and see that the Lord is good.
Oh, the joys of those who take refuge in him! Psalm 34:8 NLT

Empty at last. My home of the last five years was now a house again, empty of my family’s presence, pictures, and remnants. It had been a long, lonely ordeal of packing, sorting and disposing of my household goods. I had been alone for two months as my husband had begun a job eleven hours away.

As the moving van drove off, I entered the empty house and made my final round. I entered my study and noticed a crumpled piece of paper on the floor. I picked it up and begin to dispose of it, with the rest of the debris; but I stopped to examine the wayward paper.  My heart was energized as I read the words of a song copied:

I Have This Hope

Tenth Avenue North

As I walk this great unknown
Questions come and questions go
Was there purpose for the pain?
Did I cry these tears in vain?

I don’t want to live in fear
I want to trust that You are near
Trust Your grace can be seen
In both triumph and tragedy

I have this hope
In the depth of my soul
In the flood or the fire
You’re with me and You won’t let go

But sometimes my faith feels thin
Like the night will never end
Will You catch every tear
Or will You just leave me here?

But I have this hope
In the depth of my soul
In the flood or the fire
You’re with me and You won’t let go

Yes, I have this hope
In the depth of my soul
In the flood or the fire
You’re with me and You won’t let go

So, whatever happens I will not be afraid
Cause You are closer than this breath that I take
You calm the storm when I hear You call my name
I still believe that one day I’ll see Your face

I have this hope
In the depth of my soul
In the flood or the fire
You’re with me

I have this hope
In the depth of my soul
In the flood or the fire
You’re with me and You won’t let go

In the flood or the fire
You’re with me and You won’t let go

In the flood or the fire
You’re with me and You won’t let go

Songwriters: Jason Ingram / Michael Donehey / Jeff Owen

I had spent the last two months, seeking hard, studying diligently seeking to deeply satisfy my empty loneliness with the taste of God. I knew that this was a note from my Father, it had His flavor all over it! It was the provision I needed before I began the eleven-hour drive to another state.

The next morning, my car was loaded with treasured belongings and essentials, including two large dogs; my sleeping companions for the journey. As I was leaving the city limits, I HAVE THIS HOPE, played on the radio. I almost had to pull over because I was so overwhelmed with joy. Tears began to flow, as I tasted the goodness of God who had been and will always be my refuge.

 

Trust is the Taste Receptor of the Soul that Savors the Goodness of God

The tongue, the taste organ of the body, has 10,000 taste receptor cells. These cells convey information about the chemical composition of the “soluble stimulus” that come in contact with the tongue. This process is responsible for the pleasure derived in consuming delicious food.

The soul, the essence of our being, is equipped to receive unlimited stimuli from the presence of our omniscient, sovereign God. Our trust determines the soul’s limitation to accurately taste the goodness of God.

In that moment of hearing the song on the radio, my heart perceived his constant provision and presence. I was confident I was going to make the journey, accompanied by His presence. What a joy!

The more we examine Who God is and open the eyes to our heart we will be able to perceive His provision and presence.

Examine and see how good the Lord is.
    Happy is the person who trusts him. Psalm 34:8 NCV

We trust as we surrender and let God break and soften our hearts, knowing that He is good and His love is great. 

 

To Taste God’s Goodness We Must First Have a Taste for God Part 1

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 And I am convinced that nothing can ever separate us from God’s love. Neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither our fears for today nor our worries about tomorrow—not even the powers of hell can separate us from God’s love. Romans 8:38 NLT

Living in a new state, miles from my comfort zone, has been more of a challenge than I would have imagined. I moved from a metropolitan area to a rural town, went from being known to being unknown, from being confident in my purpose to wavering in my direction. The changes have put me on edge, feeling lonely and fearful of the future.

In addition to the physical changes, and emotional losses, I am now feeling a pressing need to be more spiritually vulnerable. Awareness of my hidden pride is becoming more evident to me and is pounding on my soul, needing to be released. The pride in me is disgusted with my pride. How could it be?…I am indeed prideful!

My dissatisfaction stems from a need for my circumstance to assuage my heart. To feel valued and worthy I need certain circumstances to fill the “not valued” and “not worthy” wound of my heart. Circumstances feed my pride. The middle letter in pride is I which points to the focus of pride. I am worthy if I am known and belong. Pride causes the focus to be on self and not the amazing love of God.

This pride is a contributor to my weak confidence in my calling. “If God brings you to it, He will bring you through it” daily screams the quote from its perch on the windowsill of my bathroom. I needed to let go of my pride and lean in on my Father to soothe my losses and invigorate my calling.

Nestled next to the screaming quote on the window sill is a small but hugely important bearer of a healing truth – YOU ARE LOVED. That is the answer to dispelling my pesty pride…I need to live out of the truth that I am loved by the creator of the universe! That is all I need, trusting His love.

In the words of C.S. Lewis, “Pride always means enmity … not only enmity between man and man but enmity to God.” When I am focusing on what I need instead of submitting peacefully to the will of God I am not trusting God’s plan and His love for me. A prideful life is living without faith.

A definition of faith written in the Amplified Classic edition of the Bible is: leaning of the entire human personality on God in absolute trust and confidence in His power, wisdom, and goodness.

 Let us all come forward and draw near with true (honest and sincere) hearts in unqualified assurance and absolute conviction engendered by faith (by that leaning of the entire human personality on God in absolute trust and confidence in His power, wisdom, and goodness), having our hearts sprinkled and purified from a guilty (evil) conscience and our bodies cleansed with pure water. Hebrews 10:22 AMPC

My admission of the guilt of pride is fortifying my conviction to press forward in this place with “absolute trust and confidence in His power, wisdom, and goodness” and let only the presence of His love fill my heart! As Romans 8:38 proclaims, “nothing can separate us from God’s love”, not even our fears. When we are prideful and fearful we are leaning away from a trusting faith. God then leans in to be available with His “goodness” his amazing grace-filled love and forgiveness.

The words to Audrey Assad song I Shall Not Want gives a remedy to fearful, prideful hearts:

From the love of my own comfort
From the fear of having nothing
From a life of worldly passions
Deliver me O God

From the need to be understood
And from a need to be accepted
From the fear of being lonely
Deliver me O God
Deliver me O God

And I shall not want, no, I shall not want
When I taste Your goodness, I shall not want
When I taste Your goodness, I shall not want

From the fear of serving others
Oh, and from the fear of death or trial
And from the fear of humility
Deliver me O God
Yes, deliver me O God

And I shall not want, no, I shall not want
When I taste Your goodness I shall not want

No, I shall not want, no, I shall not want
When I taste Your goodness I shall not want

When I taste Your goodness I shall not want
I shall not want
I shall not want

How do we “taste His goodness”?

To taste God’s goodness we must first have a taste for God.

To taste (a verb), consume, discern and experience God’s goodness we must first have a taste (a noun), an appetite, a desire and a preference for God. The converse is also true, the more we taste God’s goodness, the more we will have a taste for His presence in our lives.

Tasting is a choice that will lead to a life-giving peace. Pridefulness is a choice that stifles the peace in our hearts. To allow God’s goodness to satisfy our taste, to heal our hurt, to supply our insufficiencies and fill our every need takes deliberate acts that will deliver us from our fearful pride.

Please listen to Audrey Assad’s song I Shall Not Want.

Morning Reflections ~ Joyfully Trust God!

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by Edwin Mooijaart Photography

This morning my heart was stirred as I pondered the unfathomable presence, power, peace, and provision of Jehovah, the God of the universe, who is the lover of my soul. I am foolish not to trust Him.

Psalm 57:7-11 NLT My heart is confident in you, O God;
    my heart is confident.
    No wonder I can sing your praises!
8 Wake up, my heart!
    Wake up, O lyre and harp!
    I will wake the dawn with my song.
9 I will thank you, Lord, among all the people.
    I will sing your praises among the nations.
10 For your unfailing love is as high as the heavens.
    Your faithfulness reaches to the clouds.

11 Be exalted, O God, above the highest heavens.
    May your glory shine over all the earth.

Truth - Debbie Hannah Skinner

Truth – Original Watercolor painting by Debbie Hannah Skinner.

Job 26:14 NLT  …These are just the beginning of all that he does,
    merely a whisper of his power.
    Who, then, can comprehend the thunder of his power?”

Psalm 139:1-6 NLT O Lord, you have examined my heart   
    and know everything about me.
2 You know when I sit down or stand up.
    You know my thoughts even when I’m far away.
3 You see me when I travel
    and when I rest at home.
    You know everything I do.
4 You know what I am going to say
    even before I say it, Lord.
5 You go before me and follow me.
    You place your hand of blessing on my head.
6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
    too great for me to understand!

Ephesians 3:20 Now all glory to God, who is able, through his mighty power at work within us, to accomplish infinitely more than we might ask or think.

 Lord, I joyfully entrust myself to Your keeping!   THERE NO OTHER NAME!

What is your Focus, Astonishing Actions or Admonishing Words?

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Then the proconsul believed (became a Christian) when he saw what had occurred, for he was astonished and deeply touched at the teaching concerning the Lord… Acts 13:12 AMPC

Moving across state lines to help plant a church was an unexpected calling giving me a wake-up call! This faith move revealed how stale my relationship with God had become.

For years I had given counsel, taught, mentored and supported many individuals and groups for the sake of God’s kingdom. As I look back, I realize I had become comfortable with my relationship with God. I had many opportunities to admonish others to make their relationship with God a life priority.

Transplanting myself, with my husband, into a different culture pushed me out of that comfort zone.  As I heard their joyful stories of the astonishing acts of love and acceptance that drew them to learn more about God, the fledgling group of believers began to refresh and renew my view of God

These astonishing acts of bringing unrequested food to a family in need, delivering mattresses when the driver’s mother passed away, mowing a new neighbor’s lawn when a dad was in the hospital then paying the month’s rent, driving a dad an hour one way to a hospital for a day of chemo…the list goes on. These actions were unexpected by the recipient and hard to understand why.  “Why would someone do that for me!” was the common response to these uncommon actions. “Because God loves you” was the true explanation that prompted more exploration into the who and what about God.

The proconsul, a Roman governor, in Acts 13 was seeking to hear the Word of God. He invited Paul and Barnabas to teach him about the word of God. The sorcerer, Elymas, did not want him to believe and was attempting to thwart the teachings of Paul by perverting the true ways of the Lord. With the power of the Holy Spirit, Paul caused a darkness to come over Elymas and he became blind. The scripture says the governor believed when he saw what happened and the teaching concerning the Lord also astonished him.

The teaching was about ” the salvation in the kingdom of God attained through Christ.” (Acts 13:7 AMPC) The salvation truth astonished this “intelligent man of sound understanding”. The Greek word for astonished literally means to “strike with astonishment”.

The Truth of God’s love BLEW HIS MIND!

Are you astonished at the message of salvation? Are you excited enough to be motivated to give in sacrificial, unexpected ways to neighbors and people God puts in your life? Or has the world perverted God’s love in your heart?

God’s children powerfully reveal the reality of God’s love to an unbelieving world through astonishing acts of love.

I am learning that admonishing words of correction from an experienced Christian is not as effective as the unselfish acts of a new believer. The astonishing actions are an outflow of an astonished heart.

Astonishing actions of love point to an astonishing God.

We must show, not just tell others about the amazing love of God. The rewards of peace and joy will be astonishing!

God was my first love and was and will always be astonishingly amazing. The following words to Rend Collective’s song Simplicity express my heart’s tender love toward my Father, my Lord, my God…

I come in simplicity
Longing for purity
To worship You
In spirit and truth
Only You
Lord strip it all away
‘Til only You remain
I’m coming back
To my first love
Only You
You’re the reason I sing
The reason I sing
Yes my heart will sing
How I love You
And forever I’ll sing
Forever I’ll sing
Yes my heart will sing
How I love You
I come with my broken song
To You the Perfect One
To worship You
In spirit and truth
Only You
Only You
Give me a childlike heart
Lead me to where You are
Cause I’m coming back
To my first love
Only You
You’re the reason I sing
The reason I sing
Yes my heart will sing
How I love You
And forever…

Eclipse Highlights the Presence of God

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picture taken by Tabor Academy High School science and Astronomy teacher Michael Bentz

This is what the Lord, your protector, says,
the one who formed you in the womb:
“I am the Lord, who made everything,
who alone stretched out the sky,
who fashioned the earth all by myself  Isaiah 44:24 NET

My help comes from the Lord,
the Creator of heaven and earth!  Psalms 121:2 NET

The World Gazes at God

A common focus, the community of onlookers, human creatures of the earth, gazing at THE sun of the universe. Exclamations of emotions, expressions of amazement at the celestial experience. Viewing eyes covered and protected, mouths gaping wide with joy mingled with tears, describes the typical image of gazers. The experienced scientists, the newscasters, world travelers, the old, and the young were all impressed with the event that equalized humanity. An apparent reality emerged, as a human creature, we all live under the same sun. The intense darkness that seemed to consume the sun stirred a wonder as the world watched. The action of creation is evidence of the presence God.  Opening our senses to the presence of creation will open our awareness of God.

The action of creation is evidence of the presence of God

Sitting alone, in my empty grassy backyard, I observed a 95% blockage of the sun. I felt an exhilaration and awe as I experience the response of nature around me. The insects and birds were still, the temperature dropped as the light faded, I felt a connection with the moment. A connection with THE creator of the sun.  Wearing “glasses” with an intense filter allowed me to look directly at the powerful light, an amazing perfectly shaped sphere; placed with a purpose in the ordered universe.

God Creates with a Purpose

The moon is 400 times closer to earth than the sun and the sun is 400 times larger than the moon, a reality that makes a total eclipse possible. A probability steeped with purpose. The gazers, who made intentional plans to view the eclipse, were not disappointed. They were amazed and moved with a positive emotion.  The amazement crossed all gender and cultural boundaries. What stirred in their hearts? The wonder of creation? A realization of a divine presence? Why would God arrange an eclipse? I would like to think because he was us to feel this wonderment and joy.

I felt thankful, amazed, cared for, and elated to be known by the creator of this universe. How could anyone gaze upon this celestial event and not feel the wonder, see the light and seek the life that has been given to us by our Father in heaven, the creator? His intricate creation given as a display of His love. His son given as an anchor of His grace for us. My help, my protection, my provision comes from the creator of the universe!

Open, Lord my eyes that I may see.  Open, Lord, my ears that I may hear.  Open, Lord, my heart and my mind that I may understand the vastness of your presence, provision, protection, and peace authored by your eternal love for your created.

Wonder, by Hillsong, expresses the wonder of life seen in the light of the God’s way of the vivid color of grace and forgiveness.

 

 

 

Move to Wait, Wait to Move, the Journey of a Resurrected Life

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My memories of Easter as a child were of bright new dresses, fresh budding flowers, songs of joy, ham and Easter eggs. In my child’s mind, it was a time of new beginnings. A new season full of blooming nature, new spring clothes, the beginning of outdoor play, all pointing to the countdown to summer!

As an adult Easter is still a time of new beginnings.  Now it is a time of igniting a brighter hope and fresh focus. It is a time to authentically examine my heart extend the depth of my understanding of God’s love through the reality of Easter. A reality that points to the eternal perspective of a life connected to our loving God, through Christ, embodied by Holy Spirit. The resurrection of Christ gives the promise of a new beginning; a resurrected life, empowered by the divine creator!

To prepare my heart and mind to embrace the reality of our resurrected Christ, I engage in a two-prong process;

First, I reflect on my weaknesses, deficiencies, and defaults. Reflecting with a vulnerable honesty, seeking to purge the vain prideful mask that hides my fleshly fears. It is hard to die to yourself if you do not know yourself.

Secondly, I heighten a fresh focus on my Savior’s powerful sufficiency and strength. As I gain clarity on my need for His presences, I gratefully drop the mask to MOVE.  Moving to deny my misguided agendas, releasing my wall of fear and placing myself behind His will. To lift Him high as “my kingdoms fall”, the words of Once And For All describe the first step in living life through His love.

 

After the MOVE to lift Him and lower my faulty desires, I must WAIT. WAIT, to still my fears, still my control, to still my anxiety, as I trust in His power, praising His presence. Waiting on His direction.

And this same God who takes care of me will supply all your needs from his glorious riches, which have been given to us in Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:19 NLT

God’s direction, His present Spirit within us moves us from… death to life, dark to light, fear to faith, sorrow to joy. We are united with Him through Christ, empowered to MOVE by a divine connection, a God-ability implanted in us.

All praise to God, the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who has blessed us with every spiritual blessing in the heavenly realms because we are united with Christ. Ephesians 1:3 NLT

MOVE, WAIT, MOVE a journey from personal vulnerability to a God-ability, beginning a new life reality, resurrected from fear, revived by the power of His love.

God’s Love Secures the Heart

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My flesh and my heart may grow weak,
but God always protects my heart and gives me stability.  Psalms 73:26 NET

When my skin sags and my bones get brittle,
    God is rock-firm and faithful.  (MSG)

My health may fail, and my spirit may grow weak,
    but God remains the strength of my heart;
    he is mine forever. (NLT)

 

Valentine’s Day!  These words evoke extreme emotions. Contrasting feelings of joy to feelings of grief. Hearts are everywhere – candy hearts of every color, hearts on cards and paper, priceless hearts of gemstones and broken hearts of loneliness.

As a counselor I have asked people, involved in a relationship, to give a metaphorical description of their heart as it relates to the relationship. I have heard descriptions of hearts “beating fast, bright red on the inside with a brick wall on the outside” OR  “my heart is in a million pieces, dark and cold.” The descriptions are endless, often describing hurting, limp, damaged, unstable, weak hearts bearing scars of unmet expectations and broken trust.

LOVE YOU, BE MINE, REAL LOVE, SURE LOVE, HUG ME….are some of the words written on those candy hearts. They can be sweet reminders of sincere love or hollow echoes of a lost love. Our needy hearts are vulnerable to the actions of others if it not stabilized by an infusion of  trustworthy love from our Holy Father.

God is love. When we take up permanent residence in a life of love, we live in God and God lives in us. This way, love has the run of the house, becomes at home and mature in us, so that we’re free of worry on Judgment Day—our standing in the world is identical with Christ’s. There is no room in love for fear. Well-formed love banishes fear. Since fear is crippling, a fearful life—fear of death, fear of judgment—is one not yet fully formed in love.  1 John 4:17-18 (MSG)

God’s love is not hollow or wavering, it is solid and permanent. His love is the only reliable source that can heal our needy hearts.  “Heart” is mentioned in the Bible over 500 times, depending on the version. Our heart condition is a primary focus of God’s message to us.  “Heart” in the Hebrew language, the language of the Old Testament, includes in its meaning “the emotions, the reason and the will”*. It is the center of one’s being, the source of courage, an anchor of thoughts. It is the crucial component of our identity.     (*Vine’s Expository Dictionary)

Self-identity, dependent on the imperfect love of the world, will be heartbreaking! However, self-identity focused on the true love of our Father it will be securely anchored, allowing growth and development into its full potential.

Let God’s love be the banner over your heart. “The Lord is my Banner” is the translation of the Hebrew Yahweh-Nissi. Yahweh-Nissi is a name of God in the Old Testament. Acknowledging that His love is the banner over your heart indicates that you are identifying with God as your conqueror and savior. Life’s journeys will be more secure if they are traveled under the secure banner of his love.

The hearts of Valentine’s Day can be a reminder of the source of secure love, the steadfast presence of God in our lives.

Truth - Debbie Hannah Skinner

Truth – Original Watercolor painting by Debbie Hannah Skinner.

My flesh is fading.
His love is eternal.

My flesh is flawed.
His love is flawless.

My flesh is foolish.
His love is wise.

My flesh is fickle.
His love is loyal.

An eternal, flawless, wise and loyal love is my covering, completing me, as I trust,  always seeking His truth to light my path to life. His love is mighty! His love is expansive…

O Love, How Deep

O love, how deep, how broad, how high,
It fills the heart with ecstasy,
That God, the Son of God, should take
Our mortal form for mortals’ sake!

For us baptized, for us he bore
His holy fast and hungered sore,
For us temptation sharp he knew;
For us the tempter overthrew.

For us he prayed; for us he taught;
For us his daily works he wrought;
By words an signs and actions thus
Still seeking not himself, but us.

For us to evil power betrayed;
Scourged, mocked, in purple robe arrayed,
He bore the shameful cross and death,
For us gave up his dying breath.

For us he rose from death again,
For us he went in high to reign;
For us he sent his Spirit here,
To guide, to strengthen, and to cheer.

All glory to our Lord and God
For love so deep, so high, so broad;
The Trinity whom we adore,
For ever and for evermore.           Latin, 15th C.

Here’s my heart Lord!