To Taste God’s Goodness We Must First Have a Taste for God Part 1

 And I am convinced that nothing can ever separate us from God’s love. Neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither our fears for today nor our worries about tomorrow—not even the powers of hell can separate us from God’s love. Romans 8:38 NLT

Living in a new state, miles from my comfort zone, has been more of a challenge than I would have imagined. I moved from a metropolitan area to a rural town, went from being known to being unknown, from being confident in my purpose to wavering in my direction. The changes have put me on edge, feeling lonely and fearful of the future.

In addition to the physical changes, and emotional losses, I am now feeling a pressing need to be more spiritually vulnerable. Awareness of my hidden pride is becoming more evident to me and is pounding on my soul, needing to be released. The pride in me is disgusted with my pride. How could it be?…I am indeed prideful!

My dissatisfaction stems from a need for my circumstance to assuage my heart. To feel valued and worthy I need certain circumstances to fill the “not valued” and “not worthy” wound of my heart. Circumstances feed my pride. The middle letter in pride is I which points to the focus of pride. I am worthy if I am known and belong. Pride causes the focus to be on self and not the amazing love of God.

This pride is a contributor to my weak confidence in my calling. “If God brings you to it, He will bring you through it” daily screams the quote from its perch on the windowsill of my bathroom. I needed to let go of my pride and lean in on my Father to soothe my losses and invigorate my calling.

Nestled next to the screaming quote on the window sill is a small but hugely important bearer of a healing truth – YOU ARE LOVED. That is the answer to dispelling my pesty pride…I need to live out of the truth that I am loved by the creator of the universe! That is all I need, trusting His love.

In the words of C.S. Lewis, “Pride always means enmity … not only enmity between man and man but enmity to God.” When I am focusing on what I need instead of submitting peacefully to the will of God I am not trusting God’s plan and His love for me. A prideful life is living without faith.

A definition of faith written in the Amplified Classic edition of the Bible is: leaning of the entire human personality on God in absolute trust and confidence in His power, wisdom, and goodness.

 Let us all come forward and draw near with true (honest and sincere) hearts in unqualified assurance and absolute conviction engendered by faith (by that leaning of the entire human personality on God in absolute trust and confidence in His power, wisdom, and goodness), having our hearts sprinkled and purified from a guilty (evil) conscience and our bodies cleansed with pure water. Hebrews 10:22 AMPC

My admission of the guilt of pride is fortifying my conviction to press forward in this place with “absolute trust and confidence in His power, wisdom, and goodness” and let only the presence of His love fill my heart! As Romans 8:38 proclaims, “nothing can separate us from God’s love”, not even our fears. When we are prideful and fearful we are leaning away from a trusting faith. God then leans in to be available with His “goodness” his amazing grace-filled love and forgiveness.

The words to Audrey Assad song I Shall Not Want gives a remedy to fearful, prideful hearts:

From the love of my own comfort
From the fear of having nothing
From a life of worldly passions
Deliver me O God

From the need to be understood
And from a need to be accepted
From the fear of being lonely
Deliver me O God
Deliver me O God

And I shall not want, no, I shall not want
When I taste Your goodness, I shall not want
When I taste Your goodness, I shall not want

From the fear of serving others
Oh, and from the fear of death or trial
And from the fear of humility
Deliver me O God
Yes, deliver me O God

And I shall not want, no, I shall not want
When I taste Your goodness I shall not want

No, I shall not want, no, I shall not want
When I taste Your goodness I shall not want

When I taste Your goodness I shall not want
I shall not want
I shall not want

How do we “taste His goodness”?

To taste God’s goodness we must first have a taste for God.

To taste (a verb), consume, discern and experience God’s goodness we must first have a taste (a noun), an appetite, a desire and a preference for God. The converse is also true, the more we taste God’s goodness, the more we will have a taste for His presence in our lives.

Tasting is a choice that will lead to a life-giving peace. Pridefulness is a choice that stifles the peace in our hearts. To allow God’s goodness to satisfy our taste, to heal our hurt, to supply our insufficiencies and fill our every need takes deliberate acts that will deliver us from our fearful pride.

Please listen to Audrey Assad’s song I Shall Not Want.