Her heart was in total despair, finding it difficult to depend on the grace of her Lord to get her through this difficult crisis. She realized this crisis had crushed her already wavering spirit, left anemic from previous wounds. The protective covering over those old wounds had been ripped off and the tender hurt exposed. She had always been a fixer but she could not fix the hurt. After her last therapy session she began to understand those wounds and how her old ways of coping were not effective. They were only masking the pain. What was the truth? She had always struggled to feel loved….she felt she needed her “own miracle, which felt selfish”, she just wanted to find love and joy. In her despair she turned and emptied her pain through deep tears and prayer asking for her miracle. The next morning she awoke with a freshness, a heart of joy and a lightness of presences. She had turned her despair into a total dependence upon the grace of God whose love is unfailing. She had her miracle! The crisis that was once destructive, veiling the reality of God’s grace, became the agent of reconstruction and renewal.
This true story which is a dramatic example of a change life that was impacted by turning to the truth of God’s grace. We may not have dramatic spiritual healing exactly like hers. But the reality is, that any time we turn from our fears and voices of condemnation and are convicted of the truth of God’s love and grace in our lives there will be a amazing healing felt in our souls.
“I SPEAK TO YOU FROM THE DEPTHS OF YOUR BEING. Hear Me saying soothing words of Peace, assuring you of My Love. Do not listen to voices of accusation, for they are not from Me. I speak to you in love-tones, lifting you up. My Spirit convicts cleanly, without crushing words of shame. Let the Spirit take charge of your mind, combing out tangles of deception. Be transformed by the truth that I live within you.
Excerpt From: Young, Sarah. “Jesus Calling.”
This writing is based on the scripture from Romans 8:1-2
“Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus, because through Christ Jesus the law of the Spirit of life set me free from the law of sin and death.
Most of us struggle with this truth. Yet, we have a choice which voice to believe, the voice of fear or the voice of truth. We have power over what we believe which in turn impacts what we think and how we live.
We will never be secure until we realize we are fully loved by God, no matter our failings.
All fear is but the notion that God’s love somehow ends
Baylor University performed a study that indicated only 23% of Christians see God as a loving God. There is an Identity Thief among us! The accuser speaks to us through our wounds. Although, this shame bully that accuses can be silenced if we are intentional in tuning out the lies and turning our ear to the voice of the Lover of our soul.
The Still, Small Voice of Love
Many voices ask for our attention. There is a voice that says, “Prove that you are a good person.” Another voice says, “You’d better be ashamed of yourself.” There also is a voice that says, “Nobody really cares about you,” and one that says, “Be sure to become successful, popular, and powerful.” But underneath all these often very noisy voices is a still, small voice that says, “You are my Beloved, my favor rests on you.” That’s the voice we need most of all to hear. To hear that voice, however, requires special effort; it requires solitude, silence, and a strong determination to listen.
That’s what prayer is. It is listening to the voice that calls us “my Beloved.” ~Henri Nouwen
So how do we listen to the still small voice of love? How do we hear the voice of any one we love? We are available and attentive. I can be awaked from a dead sleep by the voice of a loved child in pain. My ears are trained to be attentive and constantly vigilant, available to the calling of my loved one.
Focusing on the voice of God that calls us “my beloved” requires living intentionally to create an availability and attentiveness to the presences of God in our life. The process also builds trust in the truth of God’s grace and love, enhancing our ability to hear His voice.
As in the words of Lauren Daigle’s song How Can it Be,
I’ve been hiding
Afraid I’ve let you down, inside I doubt
That You still love me
But in Your eyes there’s only grace now
It is your choice to take those steps toward God’s unfailing love to turn toward the truth.